I feel weird.
Yesterday I found out an acquaintance of mine died 2 months ago.
I knew without putting two and two together. I was blissfully ignorant. Now I'm just aware that another one of my friends has died far too young.
I'm really tired of such things.
Aren't I too young for me to just find out people died?
I think so.
So, the whole situation makes me feel weird.
Of course I feel bad, but I don't feel like its the end of the world.
Like I said, just weird.
I'll have more to say later.
Last year, I found out my high-school-crush-dreamy-amazing-prom-date was stabbed to death in a parking lot. We hadn't kept in touch, but still- I was devastated. All I could think about was the fact that someday, when my kids ask about MY prom, I will probably have to tell them that my prom date is dead....I know that's super selfish, but it made me so ridiculously sad. It made me feel old.
ReplyDeleteSo, anyway...that is of no help to you at all, I know. Just feel what you are feeling...sad/weird/whatever. You will start to feel it less and less eventually...it will get better.
I think now is a good time to tell you that "Ella" is the name we'd like to give our first born daughter. Maybe that will cheer you up. I owe you an email my new blogging friend. :)